I’m at the end of my rope. I can’t take the night wakings anymore, it’s at least 2 wakings and at most 7 wakings, and an early 7:30am start at work. Sometimes I look at my photos and think, “Damn I look like I have been punched in the face!” Bags galore. I want my brain and body back ASAP.
I was in Mothercare yesterday looking at car seats for the sleep monster and something caught my eye, a shiny, white mirror with pretty red flowers surrounding the glass, and inside of it I was shocked to see….. an OLD LADY. Literally where has my youth gone? I’m in my 20’s but the baby has given me at least five more wrinkles, on top of the two I already had. They are small but I SEE THEM. I see them gooooood.
On top of this, research has found that lack of sleep makes you depressed and old. If someone had told me about the sleep I would be having now prior to getting pregnant I wouldn’t have believed them. I would have cast them aside as a weirdo or even worse, a bad mum. But the struggle is real. So real in fact that I have tried every single thing known to man to get this baby to sleep. I thought my life was over. Goodbye face. Goodbye friends. Goodbye intelligent conversations (mmm okay maybe this wasn’t a thing).
did I hear you say sleeeeeeeeep trainer? What, just what is this? Speak slowly please ……my brain…. is not….. functioning.
OH it’s just this glorious, magical lady that consults you (consoles you) about your child’s eat/sleep/play behaviours and slowly but surely…..the child sleeps. Through the whole night. Yes. I said that right. Through. The. Whole. Night. (well hopefully, she has a 100% success rate so I’m fairly confident)
So I have dived into the deep end and I’m now paying a professional to help me get some normal sleep. It’s been 9 months and I work full-time with a 6am start. I deserve this.
Through my “sleep journey” (who’d ever think I would be using that phrase?) I’m going to update the blog about the various stages. I am on Day 2 right now and so far it’s going okay.
The first stage is working on the day time behaviours, napping and food. Trying to wean the little bugger off milk before naps/bed to prevent the scream demons. Somehow my boyfriend and I have created this bad habit of feeding him milk whenever he cries? Not sure how that started. OH YEA (..there you are brain..) he used to want to feed for every two hours and the boob made him be quiet.
Anyway, besides our terrible parenting, I am very happy with how the day time training is going. This magical sleep lady, Hannah Love, is very supportive and VERY knowledgable. I have asked her ten thousand questions already. Questions like how many hours are babies supposed to be awake for between naps? What is the optimum time to put a baby to bed? Etcetera, Etcetera, Etcetera, I’m not going to bore you with my dumb questions.
I will tell you though that Bear is going to bed without any fuss at our 7pm bed time. We have a really good routine going for us now.
And for the first time EVER, I cooked a whole hearted healthy meal. Chicken casserole! I am now officially a Mother. Hello.
We also give him finger food at every meal so he learns how to feed himself, because one day in the future, this will all get easier and he will eat, poop and sleep by himself!
Hannah has some amazing recommendations for easy recipes for crap mums that don’t cook ever. She also has recipes for good mums too. She basically has a plethora of information about children due to her 15 years of experience.
This casserole has lasted me three days which has made me feel less stressed. I always freak out after work because I have ZERO time to make anything for Bear and normally just buy an Ella’s pack or just feed him milk. Apparently though Ella’s, or any of the packaged baby food, does not have very many calories. It does not fill the baby UP. So this casserole has made me life so much easier and thus, HAPPIER!
It’s only early doors and we have a long way to go, but I am feeling confident about the process. I’ll have my next update in a few days, watch this space.